i know is late..

hmm.. i noe is abit late.. but better then nothing right?
heez =D
ooooook.. let me reflect wat i did for the last whole year..
Major changes took place..
1) graduate from NYP nursing course
2) step into an boring working life
yup.. these 2 strains me off..

then, all my guys frenz either in army or haf way thru, rest of the gers frenz, either failed in love life again, or stuck hafway in deciding wat to do and move on in life..

had such an good memories with my nursing frenz these 3 yrs, BBQ, the grp outing, the promises we made, and..oh.. bitiching abt other not so nice ppl.. hmmm.. but now some went MIA.. haiz.. oh god.. i misss those days.. though fed up with projects but i still miss it.. i miss my frenz and QIQI.. T_T sobz..

Work: meet cunning and mean sister, so mean and cunning tat u feel like being backstab and ill treated.. i shld go MOM and complain rite?? meet with shitty ppl (i mean really asshole ppl!!!!!!!!) how can human be like tat?? but gald to noe my collegues as some are really nice.. suppotive and encouraging though the environment is lousy.. as i say the only reason y i am still there is bcus they r there.. i am still hanging on!!

Dreams: realise tat some things even passion dun help!! or mayb is jus in my case?? kept have these tots, y am i doing in the hospital facing all these shits whereby the rest of the young adults like me are studying in NUS or NTU??? so.. i keep escaping, finding another interest, looking around for hope, comparing with others and demoralise myself!!
i have stop that but know tat i cant stay here for long, i m yearning to smell the air outside s'pore... thninking ti be missionaries not in terms of religions but as an nurse to help out. to diaster area, to famine area. i want to help ppl who need help,i also wanna to be appecitated.. i thinking this is wat i am lacking now in the work!!
iam yearning for freedom!!!
i want to explore the world!!!

Family: dad got diagnose with DM something that i expected.. his wound is so bad that when we see doctors i dun dare to tell him i am a nurse and working in DM areas.. shame on me!!!
but i wasnt upset, i noe is very very unfillial to think in tis way, but if his leg gets amputated, i think he deserved it!! DRINK DRINK DRINK!!! CHOP CHOP CHOP!!! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAA!! i am unfillial i noe!! i also wonder life without my dad, my hse will be cleaner no urine cum beer smell, my family life will be better.. i strongly believe in tis!!
my mom.. diagnose with subglottis stenosis, in and out of NUH for 3 times, i didnt tell my frenz, until she got discharge.she went thru an op (bronchoscopy), after tat op, she is paranoid, kept calling my siblings and me, tell us not to go home too late, she is scared, she has alot of things to think.. so i ask her wat she thinking.. she says i wont noe.. ya bcus she wont tell me so i wouldnt noe!! but i understand....... haiz..

Personal: no tots in getting a BF or getting married.. i didnt like any new guys for more than 4 yrs not even crush..but dun worry.. i am not les.. i love man.. i love DAVID TAO!!! my heart is like an flowing river so straight..

so... my 2007 plans is:
to slim further more
to finish my bond asap!!!
to get out of s'pore for holiday
to learn something new eg photography
to get more info and contacts wif regards to missionaries
to have more $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
to save more $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
to earn more $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
to have more feedom and breathing space..
to have more time for frenz, family and myself...
to meet DAVID TAO in person and ask him to sing song for me!!!!
hahahahahahahahahaha.... i noe i am dreaming lor.. and greedy lor..
anyway, jus plan only..

okie.. so new year new hope..
hope that wateva i do can be smooth
hope world peace!! =D
happy new year evey1!!! =P