chaotic + havoc home..

okok.. i m sorry tat it has been a long time ever since i post..
cos nth special happen, until.........

1 fine sunday...an stupid salesman came over to my hse..
pushing sales for renovation of rubbish bins..
ok maybe all of ur dunno....my hse has always in a mess ever since i am primary sch..
meaning, rubbish bin cant throw rubbish, if we open it, there will be cockroaches, pest crawling, my toilet bowel cant flush, my bathroom door cant lock, some cabinets with 1 door mising.. ok, can ur imagine it?
Actually is not bad thing cos i m used to it, i have been living in this hse for 20 yrs.. and i am not shamefully or embarressed abt it.. to me it feels more like home..

BUT, my mom been thinking of renovations, ok tats fine! so she ask the saleperson to fix our rubbish bin. and dunno y, she starts discussing abt painting, wiring of electricity...etc... baragining with the sales persons...etc..
ok, den the persons left after the deal of rubbish bin.
den the very next few days, my mom told me tat she and my aunt had found a good contractor to renovate our hse,so these 2 women carry out the plans WITHOUT disscussing with my dad,my siblings and me. NVM abt it..

Wat makes me angry is:
1)i dunno y i have to pack my beloning into boxes, whereby i am not moving hse, and i am very tired
2)after a day of tired work, i reach home, i saw my sofa got alot alot of boxes(for us to pack our stuff)i tot my mum bcum karang guni!!
3)kithchen cabinet, room cabinet is gone without us knowing, all my food is in BOXES!
4)my mom dunno a single things abt the renovation, wat will the contractor do, when will they come, wat they will be doing, for how long... all the details..how much she also not so sure, all the talking,arrangement done by my aunt(which is NOT living with US!!!)shejus okok, nod her head, agree with her sister...
5)she borrow $$$$$ from my aunt
(ok confession, i dun really like my this aunt, cos her whole family sort of look down on us,)

and i ask my mom, wat is the hurry????
we can take things step by step, wat is the urgenecy to rush to renovate everything?
she cant answer me.. all she gave us is the face(aiyah, dun argue anymore, i am sick, keep shaking her head, poor thing look!!) I DUN PITY HER!!!

so my dad gave her very very very good lecture....
he was drinking tat day, n i think he was drunk, it all started with, he says he wannt this this and this to be done, as my mom told him the contractor will do everything for us!!
den slowly my dad ask abt details, she says she dunno, an volcano erupted!
he kept walking out from the kitchen in every 5 to10 mins intervals to scold her, this lasted from 8plus till i go to bed around 11 plus.. vulgarities, hokkien words flying in the air.
is very frustrating, cos i am very tired, i wanna rest, n i cant, my dad's voice
is very very loud plus my dad is drunk, things hanging in the air, not settled, argument started...
haiz............................ sianz ar............................
i cant be bothered.

pls do not ask me how is things going on now, cos i dunno, even if i ask i wont get an answer.
i dunno wats happening........................
and i can predict if the contractor didnt do wat my dad expect, my mom or my aunt is going to get hospitalised. not kidding!!
haiz......... can i move out??????????? T_T